Thursday, April 14, 2011


According to wikipedia:

Banana is the common name for herbaceous plants of the genus Musa and for the fruit they produce. Bananas come in a variety of sizes and colors when ripe, including yellow, purple, and red.

According to life:

Bananas can be eaten as is, made in to bread, used in cereals, yogurts, popsicles, muffins, puddings, pies, smoothies, baby foods, and a variety of other things.

According to me:

Monkeys like them, Carter likes them, even Gabers enjoys a good banana product. I, on this day, really like a banana as a measuring device: about 10 1/2 ounces and 10 inches.

"Never been so happy, never felt so high, and I think I might have found me my own kind of paradise"


Sunday, April 10, 2011

Life is Good

Lately I've been feeling like my life is that cheesy "Life is good" label or those inspiration posters in offices "DREAMS: If you work hard enough you can achieve your dreams".

I really don't have much to complain about these days. Yes, kids get cranky, crazy, bossy, gross, tired, annoying, blah blah blah, but adults do too. Me being the adult that most acts like a cranky, crazy, bossy, gross, tired and annoying child! But my little world, with my loves, is beautiful. Nothing will ever top a kid smiling just because you walked in the door. Nothing is sweeter than drying off tears from a baby's face and making them feel better. And there is no joy like laying down at night knowing you've done good. Even though being a mom was never in my plans, now that I am here I am giving it my all. I mess up, I scream too loud or too much, I have too little patience, and I don't act the way I should. But I keep going, learning from the mistakes, and improving.

I've stopped reading the parenting books, stopped believing that the doc always knows best and have started going with my instincts. Sometimes my instincts say lock the door and take a nap, but I try not to listen to her! Growing in to a mom isn't an over night thing, it takes time, screw ups, victories, and a whole lot of grinding teeth. I'm learning as I go and praying my kids aren't screwed up from my slow learning style.

But with all that I am loving the mom gig. The hours are awful, the monetary pay is worse, but in those hours I get the biggest paycheck of all, time with my family. I get to see tiny moments that are huge to me and make me want to take a snapshot for my brain's memory book. And no matter how old I get seeing my kids laughing with each other, sharing a hug and kiss, and bonding will never, ever get old and will always be a joyous occasion. When I was pregnant with Gabriel I had a moment of, "oh crap, what am I doing to CJ? Her life is so good and I'm ruining it by bringing another kid in to her world." I couldn't have been more wrong. I now cannot imagine one without the other and I'm sure that 99% of the time they feel the same way. Like I wrote, life is good. So good! And I have to constantly remind myself that these days are the easy days! Yes, believe it or not I think that. I can lock them in their rooms, take away toys for being bad, put band-aids on boo boo's, give hugs to stop crying, and dance with a baby in my arms when he wakes up in the middle of the night. One day, not far from now, they'll be given to the world, free to become whoever they are destined to be. My kisses and hugs won't mean as much, I can't lock them away, and I can't shield them from pain. But for right now, right now I can.

Another life truth that I have learned is that no matter how many babies I have myself, a friend or family member announcing that they are becoming parents will always make me cry. To know what they are getting in to and the excitement of it all. Man, nothing like it. Babies bring out the worst in you sometimes, but gosh do they bring out the good! They make you walk slowly down the road examining every flower, every stick, every leaf. They notice the clouds and late afternoon moon. They giggle because you giggle, they smile when you smile, and they give the best sloppy kisses. They love you just because they do. They are amazing. And I'm addicted to them! I fear I may be that mom that has made them my world. But I don't apologize for it, because they are worth it.

"And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say, that I had the best day with you today." ~ Taylor Swift