Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Lessons From a Child

Two events happened yesterday that made me stop and take notice.  Possibly insignificant to anyone else, but hit me like a ton of bricks.

The first happened when Carter was being a "sassy molassey" to me.  This is what I call her when she's being fresh.  So I told her this and she went running away. About ten minutes later she came up to me and said, "I'm sorry I was being a sassy lassy, I was just mad."

WHOA!

She listens to me...I have a really bad habit, that I'm working on, of fussing with her when I am truly upset with someone or something else.  She'll ask to do something while I am changing a diaper, she'll be talking non stop while I'm on the phone trying to make an appt, the stories are endless.  And in my frustration I yell at her.  After I am calm and my duty is done, I apologize for yelling at her when I was actually mad at something else.  Now, I am not someone that believes you have to explain to your child why you yelled, they should just listen to you.  BUT if I am truly in the wrong, I think it's only right to acknowledge it.  Well daggonit if it that little lesson didn't get picked up by Carter.

It  made me realize that what I say and do really does have an impact on my kids.  The good, the bad, the indifferent.  Carter will randomly hug my legs if we are standing next to each other and say "I love you, mommy."  I am CONSTANTLY hugging my kids and telling them I love them.  Carter randomly yells at her toys to be quiet, something else I do quit often. And when I'm not looking, she is giving a binkie to Harper to make her stop crying or she is handing Gabe his woobie to make him feel better.  She takes care of her siblings so well and I hope it's because she is a good person, but also because she is mimicking my nurturing of them.

Then at lunch time I was doing the dishes in preparation for Hurricane Sandy to hit, expecting to not have power, and Carter asked if I would have Lunch Bunch with her.  I snapped and said, "I just want to get these dishes done, I'll be there in a minute."  And then I almost burst in to tears.  My daughter, my first born, my angel baby just wants me to sit and eat lunch with her, are dishes really that important?!  NO!!! NEVER!!!  So I put down the sponge, got myself some berries (what she calls grapes), some pretzels and water, and sat and had lunch with my baby.

I am so guilty of getting wrapped up in things that "have" to be done that I miss the important things.  Thank God Carter is patient enough with me to learn my lesson in a timely manner.  She was so thrilled that I was eating with her.  My presence was all she needed and it's something I can give her, so easily! I vow to try so much harder with this.

This morning she asked if I would cuddle with her on the couch.  I immediately stopped what I was doing and sat with her.  I hugged her, smelled her hair, rubbed her legs, enjoyed the moment.

Carter Jeanie, thanks for teaching me what's really important, you, Gabe, Harper, and of course Dadadt.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Roanoke Fall

Sigh.

This is my first "real" fall in Roanoke.  When we moved here in the fall of 2010 we had a slightly rough go at it.  Marc, while moving out of our Charlottesville home, hurt his back for the third year in a row.  He was in a lot of pain.  So, with in two weeks of moving here, he had back surgery.  Ugh!  This left him laying on his back for weeks in his parent's basement.  This left me taking care of him and our 4 month old son and our 1 1/2 year old daughter.  Marc's parents helped as well, thank God, so I can't leave them out of this little story.  But with all of this going on I didn't really get out much to enjoy the beauty that is the valley.

Last fall I had a newborn, a 1 year old, and a 2 1/2 year old, DEFINITELY not getting out of the house to enjoy the beauty of the star city.  And if I did get out, it was for a quick trip to the store.  No long drives admiring my surroundings.

So, here I am, loving every chance I get to be outside.  Charlottesville, well Charlottesville is gorgeous in the fall, it really is, but I have my heart set on Roanoke.  The sky is so blue, the colors of the leaves are so vibrant.  We've got orange, we've got red, we've got yellow!!!  I do believe Bob Ross may have painted this just for me!!!

I took this picture a few weeks ago, I'm a little bummed all the leaves are green. But look at the blue sky!! MAHN!

It helps that I drive to preschool twice a day, everyday, and get to see my favorite time of year all around me.  It fills me with such happiness.  Unless of course Harper is screaming in the back seat and Gabe is whining about something, but I mean, overall I love our little car rides.  And lately we've been passing "Spook House", a house decorated for Halloween that the kids go nuts over.

And I have to note this, hoping to recreate the magic, I took Gabe and Harper to Barnes and Noble after dropping Carter off and they were SO GOOD!!!  The best they've been in awhile and it made me love this day even more.  I find that when I have a really awful day, my kids get together and figure out a way to make it up to me.  They made up for it BIG! They gave me a grand scene and wonderful behavior.  

One of my most favorite things ever is to take pics with my kids! Especially when I think one of them looks just like me!

Soft spot for this one.

 She lights up my life! GAH! So cute!

 Gotta love a free place to take the kids to play!

 She's insanely yitto!

 You know you'll have a good day when you see this book!!

His treat for being so amazing!

I'm feeling super blessed today and Momma Lemert told me I had to start counting my blessings!  So, today, October 24, 2012, I count 5 blessings: Marc, Carter, Gabe, Harper and Fall in Roanoke! 

Thursday, October 11, 2012

I Get So Emotional Baby

I have been an emotional mess today!

After dropping Gabe off in his classroom I walked out in to the hallway to see one of his paintings. Further down the hall I passed his class picture.  All of it was too much for me.  I almost started to openly weep.  I was strong and held back.  I'm guessing it's the fact I haven't dropped him off at school in two weeks.  And the fact that we haven't been apart for that long.  He's my bud, my pal, and even though he causes me to lose my voice and hurt my neck from yelling, I'm crazy about him.

Then at home Harpie turned in to a cuddly bug.  The good kind of cuddly where she just wants hugs and not the wiggly cuddly that is annoying.

THEN I was watching a recording of "Project Runway" on Lifetime and apparently there is a new show coming out about the Houstons. The song they chose to use for the preview was "My Love is Your Love".  Well if that didn't just do me in!!

UGH!



The part that gets me the most is "As the years they pass us by, we stay young through each other's eyes, and no matter how old we get, it's okay as long as I got you baby."

Our trip to Cape May, NJ last week was to celebrate Marc's parent's 50th wedding anniversary. Barb and her sisters (plus their families) make this trip yearly, but it was the first trip for us! I'll have to write a whole separate blog on this because the trip was amazing and 50 years of marriage is even more amazing!!!  But, what the trip did was made me fall in love, even more, with my family.

I am truly blessed.

And all the tears in the world wouldn't be enough to prove it! HA!

I guess this is a short, quick post to commemorate the awesomeness that is Team Patrouch. The entire team...Mom and Pop, Sue, Tate, Tay Tay, and Sammy, Lor and my BFF Steve, Mike and Becky, and of course, Marc and my birds.

My life is a good life.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Baking

I've turned in to a baker lately.  Not sure if it's the Autumn air, something to keep myself busy, or to have a tangible object that someone can comment positively on, but I've baked A LOT of cookies lately.  Just this morning I made some more for my sister-in-law, Gretchen.

This baking has added to my busy schedule though.  That's right, I'm finally truly busy.  Not with anything grand, but enough stuff to fill my days.  I take CJ to school for 9 am, pick her up at 11:50 am, every day.  Add GB to the mix on Thursdays and Fridays.  The thing about dropping off/picking up is that I have 2-3 kids to load up each time.  If you ever want a good arm work out, put kids in and out of carseats 4 times a day.  It's exhausting and sometimes painful.  And that's when they are cooperating.

In the hours of school I bake.  Or I clean.  Lately I've been trying to get stuff together for our family trip coming up.  Or I drive over to Mom and Pop's so Gabe can get  his Pop Pop fix.  And so I can get my Mom Mom fix.  On Thursdays it's become a tradition that HR and I walk around Target.

Again, I'm not busy with meetings, work assignments, or anything other than things I WANT to be doing, but nonetheless I've been busy.  Plus, I'm playing on two volleyball teams.  The games are Sundays and Tuesdays, but this week, of all weeks, I play Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday.  I have a feeling I will be super exhausted tonight.  I can already feel it in my bones.

AND my middle bird has been more than a handful to deal with lately.  I mean like out of his mind crazy which is making me out of my mind crazy.  ANNNNDDD the birds have a cold.  Marc had it for a week as well.  I am still crossing my fingers and doing a dance that I don't get it.  I cannot be sick right now.  I just can't.

Since I've occupied my time with lots of activities I haven't reached out to as many people as I used to. And I've noticed not as many people have reached out to me.  I guess that's how most relationships go, a sort of tug-o-war.  Plus, it appears everyone is tied up in something.  When do we ever get to just sit and enjoy this life we have created?!

I'm really looking forward to our family trip.  I adore Marc's immediate family as well as his extended family.  With so many people around and so many kids around the same age, I'm expecting a lot of laughs and story telling.  It's fun being a part of another family to hear all the new stories.  I mean, my family has some great ones, but I know those!  I'm looking forward to some new ones!!  The drive may kill me though, so wish us luck!!

The other exciting part of this journey is that we are making a one night stop at my parent's house in Charlottesville.  For whatever reason, I never feel bad for letting my parents take over watching the kids.  With others I feel like I have to sort of help out or at least be present, not with them.  I use and abuse my own mom and dad! HA! But it's one of the few times that I can go lay on a bed if I want and not do a thing with my kids.  Little slice of Heaven. :-)

So, although I am sure some will look at this and laugh at me thinking I'm busy, but that's how I've been feeling.  A tad bit overwhelmed if you will!  Luckily I have my new favorite thing in the world, Chai Tea Lattes to help calm me.  So freaking  yummy!

What do you do to unwind, de-stress, take a moment to enjoy this crazy life?!