Monday, January 21, 2013

Storms and Hurricanes

When I met Marc the thing I knew without a doubt was that he was nice.  When I fell in love with Marc the thing I knew without a doubt was that he was everything I had ever hoped for in a life partner.

But what's amazing, is I didn't know the depth of his being.  I didn't know that he was capable of holding my hand while I lay in bed with a sick kid.  I didn't know that he'd sit next to me on the couch and let me cry when I was sad.  I didn't know that while I was cleaning up a sick kid he'd be cleaning up the sheets and floor.

I didn't know I could feel SO MUCH LOVE for another person.  A lot of people talk about the unconditional love they feel for their baby when s/he is born.  What I remember the most, was looking at Marc and being more in love than I ever could have imagined.  Don't get me wrong, I was smacked right in the face with my love for my babies, but Marc, something about him changed when he became a dad.  The way I saw him changed.

He takes care of us.  He takes care of ME so that I can take care of the birds.  He makes coffee, changes diapers, creates vent holes so I'm not freezing in the family room.  Marc works his ass off every day so I can have my dream job.  He takes kids to swimming lessons, plays in the snow with them, rides them around in the Jeep for thrills, and holds their little bodies when they are worn out and not feeling well.  Marc encourages me to play volleyball, hang out with friends, drive two hours to see my sisters, and get away when I need to.  He's amazing.

I'm not an easy person to love and I am certainly not an easy person to live with, but he does it day in and day out and I am grateful for that.  He's the best thing that ever happened to me.  Ever.

Shazam is one of my favorite apps because I'm a music junkie and it helps me keep track of songs I like.  Well, ALO's Storms and Hurricanes is one I tagged.  And let me tell you, it's perfect.  I heart it in a big way.

Enjoy!  It says everything I want to about my mister.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

"He'd Tear Me to Pieces That Bear"

If there is one thing I definitely know about myself, it's the fact I am Momma Bear!  Which I guess makes Marc Daddy Bear?!  There is nothing I wouldn't do for my kids.  I will fight for them and be their voice when they have none.  And to know that Marc is the same makes me very happy. To have a partner that is equally invested in your family is a huge deal to  me.  I sure am lucky!

I have never worried about speaking up on behalf of them.  Not to doctors, teachers, friends, family, etc.  If I want to say something, I am gonna say it, even if it might piss someone off. My first priority is my family.

So when I noticed Gabe had a few quirks I asked the doctor about it.  Honestly I thought he'd say it was "normal" toddler behavior.  Thought he might say, "Sounds like a boy to me!"  But he must have sensed something and saw my concern because he was willing to listen.  I am SO grateful to have an amazing pediatrician.  Someone that respects me as a mother and as an expert on MY kids.

I am quite sure there are people that thought I was nuts for even bringing up any concerns.  Maybe even in the back of my head I thought I was nuts.  And that's fine.  But I would hate to have a feeling about one of my kids and not pursue it.  I would rather look like a fool then to let something slip past me.  And I am sure in the future I will have to learn to back off a bit!  They won't want me all over them trying to figure out what's going on with them.  (But you better believe I'll know some shit!  I'll know what's up. HA!)

And I want to make it clear, to anyone that cares, that our goal was not and is not to change Gabe.  Gabe is sweet and funny, charming, cute, lovable and awesome.  People, even strangers, can't help but smile when he is being Gabey Baby!!!  There just happen to be some things that frustrate him and make the world a bit much for him. I would love to be able to help guide him through those situations instead of getting frustrated along with him.

God I love my kids.  I really, really do.  They are unique, smart, fun to be around, make me laugh all the time and are really considerate, sweet beings.  The care and concern they show for each other is breath taking.  They make my heart stop beating sometimes with their sweet sides.

And now that I think about it, I kind of want to liken myself to a better animal.  I mean, a bear is fine and all, and I'd probably be a grizzly, but I shall think of another animal.  Any ideas?

PS if you think my post title is strange, it is in fact a lyric from DMB!

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

The Team

What I love most about my 5 person family is that we really are a team.  We are our own crew, our own gang.  Luckily we have friends and family members that we are close to, but no body knows each other as well as we know each other.  We know what is funny to one another, what makes us sad, scared, what foods are favorites, shows, toys, etc.  We are a complete unit.  Internally there is some frustration and fighting.  Externally we are happy and joyful.  Also, fiercely loyal and protective.  We can scream and yell at each other all we want but NO ONE else is allowed to.

Growing up I was taught that family comes first.  I hope and pray that my children learn that valuable lesson.

Trust me, I love to hang out with friends, love to play volleyball, go on little trips away from the team, but truthfully my FAVORITE time is time with my husband and kids.  NO ONE is better to spend time with.  They crack me up.  They make me happy.  They are my joy.  And I make no apologies for it.

For whatever reason I felt the need to write this blog. To put out to the universe how grateful and lucky I am to have created such a team. And just because my team is my husband and kids, doesn't mean all teams look that way.  I really love the fact that at any point in life you can create a team.  You can create your own support network at anytime.

What do you love about your "team"?