That sweet baby that took her time getting here is now five years old. A whole hand. A big girl. The baby locks are gone, the round head that has endured endless kisses is now long and lean like a little lady, chubby fingers have been replaced by skinny, sleek ones. Those middle of the night cries for food are now cries for a mom’s hug for safety. Long gone are diapers, bottles, onesies, learning to crawl, then walk. She can get food out of the fridge on her own, prefers to be alone in the bathroom, picks out her own outfits everyday, runs and climbs, and is full on KID.
I couldn’t read her birthday card to her this morning through the tears that started flowing. For a week the littlest of things made me tear up: singing “Let It Go” with the bravado of a Broadway star, sleeping and smiling when I gave her a kiss late at night, putting on a pretty dress she picked out. I guess all that holding it in finally busted out.
She’s the best little kid ever. Actually, she qualifies to be one of the best humans I’ve ever met. Carter is everything I want to be and work so hard to be. She just IS. She’s so kind and thoughtful. CJ makes friends easily, can talk to anyone. Even at her worst, she’s pretty A-OK.
I feel as though I won the kid lottery with Carty Jeanie. She’s very respectful, behaves well almost all of the time, is polite, loves school, goes with the flow, very adaptable, and is a neat kid. A really neat kid that is interesting and funny.
After her birth I was talking to a friend about how bummed I was that I had to have a c-section. She told me that hard labors equal good babies/kids. Gosh darnit was Joni right. For all that she and I had to go through to get her here, she turned out pretty darn easy.
Carter Jean, what can I say about you other than I love you more than anything else in this world. (Note: Marc, Gabriel, and Harper, I feel the same way about you.) I hope to be as awesome as you one day. Thanks for helping me get there.
“And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven”